Leave the darkside for the night

Daylight mean to be brighten up everything on earth. Including your mood and emotion. You have approximately 12 hrs of daylight to be really happy.

That's why we sleep at night because that mean for us to bury our sorrow and not think about it. We sleep through a day and another, subconscious will help you deal with the problem you have and this is how brilliant our brain is.

I have learned to put a truly smiley face every morning, I do it so much it wasn't fake anymore, and this is actually work! You need to visualize thing, you need to just do what you think is right, is cool, is necessary. I want to be happy waking up everyday and that's what I am working on, no matter how sad I am, I want to be able to smile to the first person I see. On the progress of working on it, it becomes part of you.

My experience in Los Angeles, all those difficult moments, some fade away and some continue doing impact to my life today, I gotta learn to leave them for the night, nature will take care of it, the color of darkness will take care of it, most importantly, when I go to sleep, my dream will take care of it.

I realize my strenght of living through and not giving up can be tremendous, so now, I gotta learn how to use them correctly in other aspect of my life. I have learned that there's no forever good time in life and there's no forever bad time. And when good time comes, it can be bad, when bad time comes, it can be good.

How can life be absolute when it is not calculated in math?

And how come only until today I finally realize this is true and I can never get an absolute answer in life?

Yes, we are living in a gray area and life is just different from what I used to think anymore.

My hectic start for 2009

The conclusion of my hectic trip schedule:

I am just glad that so many people love me and so many people let me love them with open arms.

Is fun again to celebrate CNY back home because of all these new born babies. Babies bring joy to all of us and there's non-stop laugher at every corner in my house. Everyone is so busy checking out the babies with smiles and a warm heart. It is a long lost feeling about being home again, is wonderful.

Meet up with good old friends also have a brand new meaning, is not just about catching up anymore, is more about sharing each other's life and succeed in every aspect in life. We all grown up, and we are at a very different stage in life now, but we still have each other, that's just amazing to have so much support in moving on to the next stage of life.

Snow is still good and addictive, but the question is, if I can be a better person for the snow and slope in near future? Is my first passion in sport, and it light up my life like nothing else. Everytime I close my eyes, I see the white out and the blue sky.

Now I am back to my normal routine, and trying to keep all the good memories in head and turn to the next chapter, is 2009 after all, a brand new year that will come only once in my life time.

I better plan it well.

These days

I learned,

It is really not so bad to be not special, not unique, not genius.

It is so damn freaking hard to stop worrying about the future.

Religion is not part of the life to many, but it is what lead a life to many.

It is hard to resign from job.

It is not so bad when you are not alone when you are suppose to.

I can possibly live like that for a long time.

Riding motorbike is closer to nature.

My ultimate worried is something that I always thought it is the last thing I will worry on my list.

Change.