My shoes

I miss my shoes the most. Even I got new shoes in China, I miss every single pair of shoes sitting in my shoesrack sright now in Los Angeles. I count them each day and I was upset when I realize I can't remember all of them.

I miss all my party high heels, my hiking snow shoes, my killer boots, my comfy flipflop... I miss the feeling of putting them on because I am always ready to go, ready to move, ready to dance.

But what I miss the most is that pair of boots that I might never own.

The feeling of putting my ski boots on is the best, because when I am done, I am ready to ride in my favorite weather.

I was sad to miss out Radiohead concert, I was sad to miss out some good friends' birthday, but I am despair to realize my season will soon over after it just about to start.

On the other hand, I am more than ready to take life seriously, I might have to give up skiing one day, but what I will not give up is living with the same passion that I have for skiing.

Eventually, I will put my shoes on and leave the land of freedom for something new.

I just don't understand, why I always get chances to move away from my present.

"I am just a person from the present" quote by myself. But today I realize, it is too difficult to stay at the present.

I am good to go!

After China banned my blog

For no reason, I mean, I can't remember if I have written anything offensive in my blog before. Now I can't access to my friendster's blog anymore.

My thought and emotion need a new home. I guess it happens just on time that I can start fresh completely.

Since 2007 Memorial Day until now, I started with deleting some of the oldest memories to get myself ready for a new chapter in life.

If can see you again, I will never love you more and more.

I think, if you can't get over with the oldest stuff, there's no room for you to forget the newer memories.

We all try to forget things intentionally everyday. It won't work until you been through enough pain like me.

I had have enough pain, and this is just a tiny part of my life, a tiny obstacle that took my entire life of efforts to pass through it. My entire life, only 26 years.

So is good, China always treated me very well, because my blog is banned, I don't have to look back anymore.